He hardly speaks at breakfast. His forehead, eyes, eyebrows, and lips
look pinched—like his head is in a vice. He’s worried. She knows it.
That night, she’d been jolted out of her sleep again, her heart feeling
tight and swollen, like a boxing glove. Her silk pajamas clung to her
skin, and a damp chill to her forehead.
She sat bolt upright in bed, gasping for air.
Suddenly his face right against hers; she’d startled him.
Not for the first time.
He brushed her unruly hair out of her face.
“I heard it again,” she said.
The howling. That terrible, incomprehensible, bone-shattering whine that seemed to come from nowhere.
He pressed her to his chest.
“It’s gone,” he whispered. “Nobody’s going to hurt you.”
Then he caressed her until she fell asleep in his arms.
She steals a glance at him.
Pretending to be sorting pictures on the computer, she watches him out
of the corner of her eye as he sits there, bent over the table, his chin
resting in a hand as big as a shovel. He reads the newspaper from cover
to cover; it’s just the local rag but he doesn’t skip over a thing, not
even the classifieds. He’s never learned to skim. In his world, there’s
no place for skimming. Everything must be observed: wind direction, the
movement of the tide, wave action, fish movements, what men in the
harbor are saying, news and rumors. Especially rumors. If you miss
something, or don’t care what’s going on in the village, then you’re
soon on the outside looking in. And that can be fatal.
She’s only known that since she came into his life.
How did we manage to survive?
Here he is, far from the grave of his boat, the Mighty Breeze. Far
from the North Atlantic and the steep cliffs, the killer storms and
currents. Far from the disaster that pulled him down in its wake.
He’s an outsider in Vancouver. A man who doesn’t want to be anywhere but
on his boat or in his squat little house with green trim. He couldn’t
even restack the firewood the storm scattered—that’s how fast everything
happened. He must replay things in his mind over and over, neat and
tidy as he is. In the chaos of emotions and threats, he is a man who
clings to order.
So all he can do now is read the entire paper. He can’t throw out
leftovers. He calls it wasteful, making a face every time he says the
word. His shed by the ocean is stacked with pails, old ropes and tools,
rusty winches, used nails, lumber from demolished houses, worn-out
knives. A man who always expects hard times needs these things.
But he didn’t expect the disaster that befell him.
He suddenly looks up, and she feels caught in the act.
“Did you read this?” he asked. “The letters to the editor? People with
ocean-front houses are complaining that people walking on the beach keep
peeking in their windows.”
She smiles, happy that he’s found something he finds funny. Nobody in
his village has any problem with people constantly looking in their
windows. They see everything anyway, never miss a thing. Through trusty
binoculars, they surveil the houses on the opposite side of the cove.
They know when it’s lights out and when somebody comes home late.
But she’d shut her eyes to what she really ought to have seen.
He stretches across the table to study the classifieds. She never tires
of looking at him. A back as round as the leatherback turtle’s that
washed ashore one day, dead. The morning after they first made love, her
fingers felt for his vertebrae and couldn’t find them. As if he’d
morphed from a sea creature into a human.
If someone saw the way she was watching him now, her fascination would be taken for love.
But it’s more like wonder. Silent amazement that they’re both here. Together. That he followed her, all this way.
How did we manage to get away!
Did we get away?
He’s always been so afraid of the city. The cars. The crowds. The
pace. Traffic lights everywhere. Eyes that look right past him. Mouths
that don’t say hello. Losing himself in the sea of people on the
sidewalks.
But now, after everything that happened, he feels secure here. Nobody
knows him in Vancouver. Nobody knows anything. His name means nothing.
It’s been ten months now. He never talks about going back. Not even
about the Mighty Breeze. Or the kitchen with its loud, ticking clock.
Not one word about the cove or the dock with the rotting planks he’d
long wanted to replace.
“Don’t you want to call?” she asks him occasionally.
He just shakes his head, raises his eyebrows, and looks out the window,
checking the sky over the neighboring apartment towers. Then he wants to
go for a walk before it rains. His route always leads to the ocean. Not
to his ocean but to this other, Western ocean, the Pacific. Water that
never, to his astonishment, freezes over in winter.
She hasn’t taken any pictures of him since they came to Vancouver. As
if photographing him were cursed. As if her pictures would reveal
something she wasn’t prepared for. The way he’s sitting at the table,
turning the pages, his brow furrowed, back arched like a bridge over
water, lips pressed together—she doesn’t have to capture this moment
with her camera. It’s already burned into her mind. Exactly like the
secret that she must never reveal.
Do visions of what happened haunt him as they do her? She’s afraid to ask.
Out of nowhere, the memories appear before her eyes, and they’re not always the most terrifying ones.
The wall hanging, for instance, in a stranger’s living room, of a band
of caribou at sunset. Blackish-brown shapes backlit with kitschy neon
colors. The caribou stiff, as if blinded by the garish orange and yellow
and red.
A wild animal frozen in the headlights’ glare, fearfully undecided between safety and doom.
Text copyright © 2015 Bernadette Calonego
Translation copyright © 2016 Gerald Chapple
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Questions for a book club discussion
- Why does freelance photographer Lori Finning willingly travel from Vancouver to Northern Newfoundland in Canada, although there are unanswered questions surrounding her assignment?
- What is Lori`s impression of the taciturn fisherman Noah Whalen at first sight?
- How does culture shock manifest itself for Lori Finning who is a big-city-dweller?
- Does she trust Noah despite the rumors that she hears?
- Why do the locals in the tiny fishing community of Stormy Cove open their doors to Lori despite her being a stranger coming from the outside?
- Why does Lori get involved in the story around the suspicious death of Jacinta Parsons and the disappearance of Una Gould although it has nothing to do with her assignment?
- How and why does Lori`s fascination with Stormy Cove and Northern Newfoundland grow?
- Can you describe the ambivalence that Lori feels, when she encounters a fellow reporter in the person of Reanna Sholler?
- Why is Lori so intrigued by the true story of the French aristocrat, a young woman who was marooned on a desolate island with her lover centuries ago?
- In your eyes, what character traits in Noah attract Lori?
- Is her willingness to stand up for her “urban” beliefs turn the locals against her?
- What events trigger memories of tragic events in Lori`s own past and how does she deal with them?
- Does Noah try to bridge the cultural differences between him and Lori?
- Does Lori betray Noah in order to find the truth about Jacinta`s suspicious death?
- Could the murders have been solved without the interference of a stranger like Lori?
- Where lies the guilt for Jacinta´s death?
- Can Lori`s and Noah`s relationship survive if they have to flee Stormy Cove?